there are these moments...

there are these moments

these brief windows of open reflection

opportunities to look out into the world and yet back into yourself

deeper than you usually would

and suddenly you see it all so clearly

where you are

where you wish you were

who is around

and 

who is missing

i am not where i want to be.

in so many ways i'm not doing what i want to do

not surrounded by the people i wish i had near

not living the life i intended for myself

yet

and i'm a patient girl

i'm used to waiting for things

used to holding my breath

and used to counting sheep

sometimes i feel like i'm only sleeping to dream

because sometimes when i'm dreaming i feel more awake than 

i do day to day

last night i came face to face with such a big window 

that it swallowed me whole

and i'm still in there

framed and stuck 

struggling to get out

just to change it all and re LIVE the moment

and make it better

progressive

opportune

intentional

or something more purpose driven and time worthy

speaking of which

i've found out about this website through my bff who loves lists about as much as i do (which is an awful lot) so i'm passing it on to all you DRIVEN people out there who actually want to do things, somethings, anythings with your life

www.43things.com

check it out

oh

and smile.

love love <3